i am in a shitty mood. 

i am always just so paranoid about how boys really feel about me. jon just had his wisdom teeth pulled and i’ve managed to convince myself him not wanting to hang out means he no longer likes me even though we hung out like a few days ago and i see him almost every day. i’m just not used to boys liking me back and i’m really good at chasing boys away and i don’t know how to play the games everyone else knows how to play.

And also all the stress of moving is kicking in but only in waves because i mostly dont care where i stay.

i wish someone would give me really good advice on how to cheer myself up and how not to worry so much and how to make all the boys fall in love with you.

maybe there is a wikihow for all this.